 “Someday, I will be proud of myself” My name's Elena, but it's alright to address me any name that suits you. I'm a Registered Nurse in the Philippines and in the United States of America. Currently waiting for a miracle so I can finally work in the west. Being a couch potato and drowning myself in books are some of my likes while anything-pork and futile people are my dislikes. Credits
| MAKE ME HAPPY :((
I don't know what just came into my head but please, before it's too late, STOP ME. It feels like I'm agreeing with it. It wants me to delete all of my accounts. Say hello stupidity, I agreed. But on the contrary to that, I don't want to.. it's just that it has been senseless, all of it, I just want to delete all of it. FS, Facebook, Multiply, Xanga, Bebo and ALL.Anyway. I liked the new song of Leona Lewis, "Better in Time" even though it doesn't fit my status right now. This entry was a draft.. I just continued it right now 'cause I can't sleep. But you know what? I've had many dreams with such little sleeping time. HA! =) I'm having continuous, random dreams about you again... I don't know if those dreams are signs but whatever.. It's just dreams. Okay, I have this theory. I'm being bombarded by thoughts of you. ONLY YOU, that's why I can't sleep..? Talk about self-centeredness. Whatever. HEY! UHM, CAN I NOT THINK OF YOU EVEN FOR ONCE? I feel so fed up. I'm so tired of this cycle. I'm so tired of all the drama I have been through. I WANNA HAVE A NEW CRUSH AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Seriously, you don't even know what I'm going through 'cause you're too happy to even notice me :| THAT'S WHAT SUCKS THE MOST. Anyway, the other day Pam and I chatted about how most of the time the love of our lives are the ones who make us feel unhappy, but on the other side, they're also the ones who give joy to us, so in a way, it's like we are punished and/or blessed by them. I mean they make us happy. But then the next day, they are the reasons for our frown. Then for them, we're just their normal chat-mates, friends... I think you already got me. I REALLY HATE THIS FEELING. You know what I'm feeling right now? (Straight Face) You know why? ('cause that's what I'm feeling right now.) As much as I want to let go of this feeling, I have no control over it. I want it out of my system. I REALLY DO. And to add to that, a new crush would be really great. That person might help me realize how I'm just wasting my time thinking and thinking about FARHA :| Okay. That should do it. Have a good night, you!  |  |
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