yesterday, i realized that nursing isn't the course for me. i realized that i wasn't capable of giving an efficient nursing care to a new born. the way the clinical instructor said it was, "mamamatay na yang pasyente mo sa pageexpose ng katawan niyan..." and bla, bla, bla. it was so simple, and the act that i couldn't give a very good newborn care is a sign that i'm not for the said course. i know in myself that i studied the step by step procedure and all that. it was maybe because the CI was very irritated by me that's why when it's my time to perform the ret.dem, she was on a high blood mode. :| UGH. oh well.

haven't talked about this with my mom yet. but i'll really tell her what i'm thinking.