I was about to, but this time, I was able to control the urge. I didn't exaclty want to attract attention, so yeah. At first, I thought I was okay with a flat 3 grade. . . but as the day came to an end, I realized that I really was not okay. It was just only because of Rachelle's obsession (in a good way) that distracted me with the real emotions that I was fighting. My groupmates and I meet up again for the last time this afternoon to revise our hard copy. While doing the revision (by yours truly, always), I had to go back to school for my finals in FCL. Awww the only time I got to see my C again... He's so lovely while answering his exam. I was kind of 20 minutes late. Not bad! Okay back to the story. So when I got back to school, I met up with Donna and her group first before going to my respective classroom. They told me their grade is like between 2.75 or 2.5 and that just got me thinking if I would be thankful or rageful with the grade the panel gave us... I got dejected. Come to think of it, the panel really meant to give us a failing grade, but just didn't maybe because of something I'm not really aware of. I wish the panel just gave me and my group a failing mark SO IT WOULD BE SHOVED IN OUR FACES THAT WE DIDN'T DO GOOD. Maybe they didn't fail us 'cause they thought that we wouldn't be able to handle the failure... Pfft! So, after my exam on FCL, I left for Nikki's pad again, finished half the revision while my cooperative groupmates watched Dear John. Aww, they chilled. Alright, they needed it. Thankfully Bra arrived. He and I worked together on the PA part. And then while finishing the NCP part, the others wanted to go home... Very nice, groupmates I have. I don't know how I survived with their attitudes. Oh well.

You know what hurts worse? It was the feeling that my groupmates (or just some of them) didn't care enough on the grade that we got. I think they are complacent that at least we passed. Well this I must say: The mark our panel gave us is telling us that, "NEXT TIME, DO A BETTER JOB, FOR NOW YOU'LL GET THIS KIND OF GRADE". 

MOVING ON. I congratulate group 2! I know you deserve it, knowing of course that you have the best people in class. I shouldn't have expexted too much from the group I belong.... And it's safe to admit that I know I had my own insufficiency during the whole making of the case presentation, but it would be comforting to know that my groupmates too know their lack of responsibility.

My life is so sad. Oh, and finals are coming up! Great!


I really have no idea the people who are able to see this, so if this entry made an impact to you, then do some reflection. I didn't say I hate my group. I'm just disappointed with myself.

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