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Elena


“Someday, I will be proud of myself”

My name's Elena, but it's alright to address me any name that suits you. I'm a Registered Nurse in the Philippines and in the United States of America. Currently waiting for a miracle so I can finally work in the west. Being a couch potato and drowning myself in books are some of my likes while anything-pork and futile people are my dislikes.

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Letting go.....
Saturday, April 19, 2014 • 4:18 PM • 0 comments



of useless things (and people). 

On this extremely hot summer day, my mother decided to get rid of some nonsense stuff that's contributing to the clumsy look of our home. She asked me to help her de clutter and I didn't nag because I owned some of those stuff. 

Some of those things are from college, specifically from first year when I was still in Trinity. Oh those lovely days. From the notes on random yellow pad papers to the fillers to the quizzes and exams (I forgot how we call the special paper we used)., it was all there. Also, I found this little notebook I used from my second year when I already transferred to another school. There's really nothing special but I decided to flip on the pages...until I got to the last page. It described every emotion I had for the different people in my life. Man was I that full of rage? I snapped a photo of it and then set it aside. Then next I found this Navi planner I got for the year 2010. I flipped through the pages again, trying to imagine what was happening while I was writing those exact words on that planner. Some were happy days, and some just so-so. I decided to snap some photos from the pages I think are worth remembering. I thought so hard about keeping the planner and the notebook. The result of my thinking is a no though. I'm not keeping the planner because I don't want to deal with it and the things written on it anymore. I don't wanna be the same old lame person I was back then. It's a bittersweet move, but I've thought of it wisely. 

And since the subject of this entry is letting go, I've finally come to my senses (thank you Lord!😇). I realized that I have reacted so negatively, I was overreacting. I kind of pity myself for being like that. And so, today I tell you that I've finally overcome the whole situation. The dream won't bother me anymore, I won't let it. I'll finally stop worrying myself and just go on with my life. 

And now, I want to forget you...for good. 😌

I want to start my life anew, that's why maybe sometime this year I'll be going away for a while. I'm still not sure where, but I'll keep you posted. 😉

xx


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