 “Someday, I will be proud of myself” My name's Elena, but it's alright to address me any name that suits you. I'm a Registered Nurse in the Philippines and in the United States of America. Currently waiting for a miracle so I can finally work in the west. Being a couch potato and drowning myself in books are some of my likes while anything-pork and futile people are my dislikes. Credits
| Trying to adult
Wow! May 13, 2015 -- apparently my last ever post here. Thank you Blogger for not deleting my blog.Anyway, one year and a month has passed, I'm frowning as I type that I'm still the same person as before. Still in the same place as before. I don't have anything I can be proud of right now, that's probably one of the reasons for my melancholy at times. Yeah, I guess I'm experiencing the "crisis" this early. I am well-aware that I haven't reached any goals yet, but I am working on it. I just believe I am extra slow on it. I wish I had different decisions before, that I had a different mindset... Sometimes I am really depressed. It's just a term, I know how serious that psychological disorder is. I'm still here though, still breathing... and I am everyday thankful to Him for that. I have failed a hundred times... running through this mess we call life. It's hard to know I'm not as competitive as other people around my age. It's hard when my colleagues have that seemingly good life with a good career path. It's hard when I am already a professional without a decent job. It's hard when I watch my mom work so hard, still for us, her kids who have already graduated and already professionals. It's hard to be denied a visa. It's all hard and I always cried. But right now, I'm slowly fighting. Trying to look for my place in this world. I will keep you posted! And, yes I will update this as often as possible. Elena  |  |
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